Jumat, 05 Oktober 2007

The Beautiful Life Come to Your Soul

Allah always give me beautiful life. I never realize it. How I have to say thanks to Allah. Allah always give me miracle in every moment. I was born in nice family. I have Islam and I want to be a Moslem's. It's too hard and going harder. Sometimes, I feel it's too hard to going on but.....I always remember to fight back.
I am totally 100% ordinary man. I often make a mistake and doing some stupid things. I never stop to ask and pray to my lovely GOd (Allah). I always come when I am sad. Allah never sleep and busy. I believe in Allah. The miracle always come, the flash light come to my soul to make me warm and comfort. I never imagine how my life without Allah.
I want to build self- esteem as moslem in every moment. Allah help me to appear it. The crazy environment with full of smog, I always try to stand on my feed and keep my aqidah. How hard it's I wont to stop.
SubhanAllah, I can breath and life in happiness. As a woman, I can caught higher education and get prestige from my environment. In deep of thinking at night of ramadhan, I knew how lucky I am. In my residence, there are entire girls. Most of them have a good education and get prestige. The other side, they are don't have opportunity to get higher education and prestige.
I learn from my friend. Actually she is a girl who stand next to me at the mosque. She is not educated woman but she is so polite. Do U know who is she? she is a servant at one of my neighbor. She has strong self-esteem. She always wearing veil to cover her bodies. She always respect the older and love the younger. I am so jealous. In the deep of thinking, I ask to Allah to give me self-esteem as moslem.
I am not perfect woman. I am not really tall and almost short but it's normal bodies. I have complete of fifth sense. Most of person whom I met, they said that I am smart girl. Sometimes, I am not confident with my bodies but I just put away far from my mind. Allah give me perfect shape of man.
The other man, mbak Lis. She is servant too. She has small bodies but normal. Her face is not really beautiful. She always kinds to anybody. She always go to the mosque to salat tarawaih every night at ramadhan. She really love kids. But the bad experience come, one of my neighbor kid, Lala, she is about three, she so affraid and cry when mbak lis close to her. I knew that her mother cover it. Her mother wont hurt mbak lis heart's. It happened in front of me. I cannot imagine how mbak lis feel's. In the deep of my heart, I am sad and with full of my heart thanks to Allah. I cannot imagine if I do not have higher education and prestige. I cannot imagine if Allah didn't give me beautiful face and smart mind. Alhamdulillah wa syukurillah. Thanks Allah you give me beautiful life. You give me Islam and made me be a moslem. LailahailaAllah.

My Candle Light

You're my candle light
It's gonna dark
The lamp is going to turning on
Upss....
The electricity is not enough
I am so confused
I am older than five
but.....
I am so scare
It's gonna dark
suddenly, the flash light come
It's so beautiful
My heart gonna warm and comfort
My candle light
The candle light burn my spirit
it built motivation
You gave me new power
keep fight....! Keep fight....!
You are my candle light
You burn your bodies
make me warm and comfort

My Precious Thing

It's too strange.
It's total mystery
Allah give me beautiful life
and....
The day come....
I hope it is not late but...
I made a mistake
How I wonder it was
you're too precious
I lost you in few second
I did it
I was losing you
I never realize it
You R my precious thing
Even though you are not thing
I knew how precious you are
when you was gone
you took a part of my heart
I never realize it before
how precious you are
I really missing you